That is the only word can describe myself at this moment after knowing my boss decision regarding which course should I take to pursue my study. You are absolutely have a power & right to reject my application, but why me? Instead you asked me to choose another course. Sigh again. What to do? Will see how it goes whether I want to proceed or not because tawar hati already. I don't know why really hurt this time; maybe because there are another matters (work and life) that make my life worse and berkecil hati. Everything happened because of my own mistakes. Self-disappointed. But again "Never Say Never." Always trying to be more open minded and positive. No turning back young lady. Behind every dark cloud, there is silver lining behind. Allah knows better. Biarlah...
Last few days have been tough.
A journey to Kajang to KT was terrible. Took about 3.5 hours from Kajang to Karak only. We arrived at KT around 4.30 am. And then rest for 2 days. Then the journey back to NS continued and guess, the trip took about 12 hours. FANTABULOUS!!! All activities; singing, eating, complaining, laughing, joking had been done in one time at the same place. Most importantly this little kid perfectly well behave. This is the first time ever I drove all the way from KT to NS. HARI INI DALAM SEJARAH. Seriously challenging. Alhamdulillah everything was safe.
Finally I know what is REAL back and tapak kaki pain. Do I suppose to face all these during festive season every year? Since we moved to KT last 2 years, I faced the same phenomenon. Should be like this always? I am begging to you Mr Government...Please do something at Gombak-Karak Highway to prevent massive jam...Please do something to finish up all the LPT2 work so that we can reach KT faster than now.
Yesterday, someone (non muslim) asked me about what will PM and his wife be after coming back from Mecca. She asked me why PM's wife did not wear a hijab? And then she explained to me everything she knows about Haji. Subhanallah. Very amazing. As I know, everything she said were all true. She continued saying that the mistakes done by a minority group of Muslim actually threatening the whole Muslims and ISLAM. The world's spectators will find and see the negative thing only as a reflection of the bigger group. She couldn't imagine what will happen to the generation Y who in the current state of mind that are not mature enough to differentiate between the right and wrong about ISLAM. They will become more and more confused with all the debate between pro and opp of ISLAM.
Actually I became clueless after hearing all those questions and explanations given by her. Even the non Muslim can understand well about this religion, what about me? So ashamed to myself. All I said, I was lucky enough to meet her who understands well about ISLAM. Its so wonderful if everyone can think wisely like that. About the PM and his wife, we pray the best for them and also to the other Muslims. Don't ever try to judge others doing. Everything is between he or she with God.
Sometimes, some people who keep questioning, to be exact; debating about religion are hard to be influenced. To be safe better I end up the conversation. Hehehe..
What about me? Do I have a chance to go to the Holy Place? InsyaAllah...
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