Emotional: Stage 8/10

ENJOY, HAPPY, LAUGH. For the time being, those 'things' are very far from me. At this moment I feel like 'nothing' inside me. I don't know why lately my mind urges me to find another job. Actually it is not easy because the chance to get appropriate and related job with my qualification is very low. And my passion to further study also disappear (should be I start this semester but because of some problems, I need to postpone it) a.k.a improper planning. And I am not sure what is going to happen the next semester.

Everything comes to my mind simultaneously. Seriously, I cannot make up my mind, I cannot react positively, I hate people like to take granted on me. What do you think who I am? Just hold it in me. gRRRRRR!!!! And I don't like my job. Deal with people who think they are superb are bullshit!!! There are sometimes we need to be serious. I try to be tolerate but in return everyone takes for granted. And there will be donkey's voice get interfere without knowing nothing. Very stupid!!! Look at yourself first before getting mess with me. Sorry to say that I am a bit protocol. AKU BOSAN DI SINI!!!PAHAM TAK???TAK SUKA DAN BOSAN!!!

Personal life? I am not ready for it. I am sorry to say. Maybe I am a little bit trauma even I hate to use or hear that word. Let the time decides. I'm scare of it. I pray everything happens before and after are my destiny. This is the best for me. SometimeS 'naughty' things come across my mind. I would like to do the same thing to others for what had happened to me before. But it kind of jerk is it? I need to remember one thing only. The test from AlMighty Allah is to see my true colours. I feel glad because Allah still remember me. So, please try don't destroy my own self.

What else? Life has so many obstacles. Day by day. The same things are repeating all over again and coming into my life in different manners. Hope I can cope and handle it in a very positive way. There are many more complicated problems outside there. For example, there is a school in Malaysia where 3 students are not allowed at the first place to sit for the UPSR exam because the teachers are afraid the school ranking will drop. For me, the big issue here is why those teachers can think that way? This incident shows the thinking level of Malaysians are at the red level. So many educational problems. Another issue is pornography in public is getting worse. There are many more social issues in our society to be listed. So, my problem is nothing compared to them okay!!! Sad sad sad sadism...