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My blog is not updated frequently this month. So far, only 2 posts in July.Huh!!! Why??? Today is Friday. The rest time is longer than usual,about 2 hours. I have rejected 2 invitations to go jalan jalan today. I want to update my blog. Hahahaha. Actually because of my stomach. I ate 2 tablets of medicine last night. I was not sure what its name. Sort of julap I think, but this one is recommended by a doctor. As result, I regularly went to the toilet starting around 5.30 am this morning till 11.00 am. Fortunately, my stomach is getting better this afternoon. Other reason is because of the weather. Lately, the weather is very hot and dry. And I start getting the mild coughing.Hope this won't be long.

Ha, back to the updating blog issue. Instead of blogging, I have spent my leisure time to complete the English tasks given by my tutor. She has give me a lot of articles that need to be completed in a short period of time. Sometimes, I feel like to give up. The eagerness to quit the class is so powerful. But it is not simply quit. I chose to learn English at first, so why should I stop. Just try to finish it till the end.Just need a little bit of time to make myself comfort and suit with a heap of assignments.

Any first step to do something good is always hard. For example when you want to be a better person after repent. It is not like baking or hiking. The braveness to change is a gift to selected person only. And after the changing, we need to be istiqamah. And at this level, many of us collapse.The istiqamah is the hardest thing to do in this life. There are a lot out there that influence us to stop the good deed. Last night I watched the performance of nasheed band on tv. The song was entitled Hijrah Menuju Allah. Good song. However, the Mengemis Kasih (MK) still my favourite nasheed song. I dare to say that for those who listen to this song (MK)especially in the middle of the night when you bermuhasabah diri will cry without paksaan. The feel of guilty in myself at the fullest level. Actually crying is not a simple thing. Sometimes I feel so embarrass and ashamed with myself when so hard for me to let my tear comes out during I perform my solah and read du'a. Conversely, the tear will come out easily when get too stress about work,personal or other matters. Oh my God..
Never too late...Jangan omong kosong sahaja.....