look stupid when mad

Sinopsisnya begini...
I really wanna curse people. Even I know it is a sin, but I am really do. How come I want to be berlapang dada if this people act like a bull shit. Kiss your ass la. Don't you have a brain to think your doings? I know you want to achieve or fulfil something but please please please think twice in every aspect before making decision. Young age does not mean you are not mature enough to make wise decision. Or when you are older than me doesn't mean you can treat me like I am a human without a heart. And of course your need is the main priority but come on la. Don't be like a shit. Throw away the hypocrisy in yourself. I don't know whether I am too demanding or people out there have no sense or don't want and ignore just like that. Or maybe I am over thinking. Who cares? I just want to express my feeling inside. Uhh! I really feel like damn betrayal. Kiss your ass for letting me feel and be like this. I have never curse people until I want to post it on my blog or express it orally. It will never end if I just keep silent and unfortunately I prefer this way because I was born to be always surrender one. In a big family I was trained to be more tolerant because not all my needs will be fulfilled. Indeed this is hard for me. Maybe last time I have someone to share my problems with, but not now. I usually will not share my problems with my family at the first place. Usually they will notice something is not right maybe through my appearance.Then the action begin....
Back to the cursing issue.Arghhhh..Damn it. Why people so hard to understand the meaning of responsibility. The responsibility is not only meant towards your families. But for everyone. It is a hak for everyone;friends, colleague and everyone around you. Don't ever say you don't know that. Or, opss sorry. I did not realize.. I always heard that. Again, I will curse you or kick your ass directly...
The responsibility is played in all aspects, what is in your life. You don't even have a chance to choose what you want and what you don't want. If you neglect one of your responsibilities, it means you are zalim. It is easy. Don't put something in the appropriate place. Nah,amik.Direct translation.Just think about it.Use your brain la.
Don't make me to be hardcore zalim. Hypocrisy is like a $%^%*&^%*....
See Hani, you try to sacrifice for a certain thing, but in return you get only shit. And finally your dosa bertambah because you regret what you have done before to be nice. Arghh..what the #$%%^$%&!!!

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Hohahohahoha. Above is the entry I wrote couple of weeks ago when I was really mad, rage and hatred at the highest level in my heart . Whaddduppp!!!Macam pudar sudah ketenangan, keayuan dan apa apa kecontrolan in myself. Control yourself Hani. Easy to get high blood pressure soon. What I really crazy about last time? Actually I am not really sure. Otak dah senget dan serabut dengan surrounding. It is normal for everyone especially when your privacy and you right was hit by a huge trailer with 18 tyres. Don't ever get mad over stupid little things. Why I post this entry now, not last time? I think I still conscious and aware that rage not should conquer myself that time. I look like a very silly person bila marah. Eeeeiii, tak sukanya...The conclusion is simple: You look stupid and ugly when you get mad.

Semalam sambil membaca komik lawak kampus edisi May 2011, sambil menonton Semanis Kurma hosted by Ust Siti Norbaiyah and her husband. Not Manisnya Kurma Itu by the Sepah ok. In a positive way, if I were Ust Siti, I really proud of myself for what I did until someone follow my steps.The aura is very awesome. For a negative thinking, feel annoying a bit la kot because someone mocking myself.Nevertheless,good job Sepah. Your jokes make my day shining brighter. I love to laugh actually. 'terperanjat boboi'..hahhahahaah....

The hosts share one hadith that I am not sure the exact sentences but what I can conclude are;
1. Manusia yang paling dikasihi Allah ialah orang yang memberi manfaat kepada orang lain.
2. Amalan yang paling disukai oleh Allah ialah menggembirakan hati orang-orang Islam atau menghilangkan kesusahan daripadanya atau menunaikan keperluan hidupnya di dunia atau memberi makan orang yang lapar.

So, Hani, remember does not matter any bad or good thing happen to you, what people say bad about you or give you a compliment, why and how people treat bad for you,and anything else that make you sad, suffer or even the happy thing, just don't care ok. What should I do is 2 sentences above. Remember...Jangan buat buat lupa or buat perangai lagi. Kena kuat kuat kuat and tabah tabah tabah ok. You are mature enough to judge what the best for you ok... Kata kata semangat pada hari Jumaat untuk diri sendiri.