Terdetik saat itu. Aku amat rindu.

This morning went to UPM. Met my sister there. Had a mcd breakfast together with my sister in law and my niece & nephew.
My SIL asked my sister bring down (from her room at level 4) the dresses(muslimah dress:sampai lutut) that her room mate sale.Just wanna have a look and perhaps some money will be spent on.
I didn't suite most of the dresses because I am getting fatter.Huwaaaa.. After try one after another, finally one black + white dress is look okay on me. So just grabbed one. RM32 per dress.
I have spent my Saturday evening in my room reading Sidney Sheldon's novel, Nothing Last Forever. Suddenly my mind came across to the dress that I bought this morning. Yeah, I still remember. I was like and always wore that type of dress when I was at Adelaide. There I learned a lot of Islam. But after going back to Malaysia,most of Islamic things I used to do everyday had gone.

Its not like I do not perform my solah or ignore Quran or wear a sexier dress. It is not like that. What I mean is I didnt perform my solah when the time has come. I delay it. I seldomly read Quran which has used to be my 'bestfriend' when I was in Adelaide. I didnt practice what I have learned when I was young.
I AM SO POOR AND STUPID.My heart is kotor.
There are many things that are totally and partially different when I was in Adelaide compared to my situation right now. I do miss those times in Adelaide.

Amat sukar untuk ku alirkan air mata ini kernaMu.
Menangislah wahai mata,
Mutiara meriwayatkan cinta,
Antara hamba dan Tuhannya,
Sedumu meriwayat duka,
Jiwa hamba memanggil Penciptanya.

Menangisla wahai mata,
Biar setiap ketika,
Biar setiap masa,
Jika tidak membasahi pipi,
Biar tetap membasai nuraniku

Really I want to get back to the way of ISLAM. Please Ya Allah. Lapangkan dadaku.Kuatkanlah semangatku sampai bila2. Jangan Kau cabut kesedaran hati ini. Aku pohon pada MU.Amin