Lately I've been a little bit busy than usual and of course that makes me tired and eventually makes me to show some not nice face expression.I failed again in emotion controlling. Sometimes it was accidentally that my face turned to sort of moody type. I didn't realize it actually and people around me noticed that and asked me why. Really thanks for your concern. The concern really makes me feel appreciated.Seriously!!! Maybe kind of manja person. I am nurtured that way. 4 brothers and 4 sisters together with my parents make me kind of manja person maybe. Heheheh..
Just now came across to a video from a blog. The title was 'Messages to Youth". I was not sure who was the penceramah. Maybe it was a simple talk but very meaningful.
The first group of questions mentioned actually has the same answer; why I am created and existed on this earth? The purpose I have been send to this world? What is my mission of my life? And my answer is to worship Him but the question is did I? The answer is......... Kind of stupid, is it? The exact answer is already stated in Quran and we read it everyday:
Katakanlah, “Sesungguhnya shalatku, sembelihanku, hidupku dan matiku hanyalah untuk Allah, Tuhan semesta alam”. ( Al An’am : 162 )
“Say, ‘My prayer, my offering, my life and my death are for Allah, the Lord of all the worlds.’” (Al An'am:162)
What I have done so far to show my worship to my God? and what have I done to my religion? Nothing and nothing and nothing. So poor.
Better think what kind of life I have right now. What path I have been through in the last 26 years......So bad....Enough is enough. Past is past. Just learn from the mistakes. What I am worried right now is I don't think I can be consistent in the right path for all time...Seriously. There were many times I was collapsed continuously...
To be continued....
Selingan....
" Doa anak soleh, ilmu baik yang diajar pada orang lain dan sedekah dan amal jariah." Anak belum ada. Ilmu amatlah cetek tapi cuba untuk diajar pada orang dengan pelbagai cara. Mungkin juga melalui blog, mungkin juga dengan sikap untuk berubah menjadi baik dan cuba konsisten. Sedekah dan amal jariah lagilah macam tak ada. Sedihnya.....
Sepanjang cuti dua hari ini ternampak 2 insiden yang membuatkan hati ini luluh yang amat.
Kisah satu: Di satu kawasan perumahan flat. Ternampak seorang makcik tua yang memakai tongkat untuk berjalan. Amat payah untuk beliau berjalan. Sehinggakan berpaut pada kereta. Satu tapak berhenti, satu tapak berhenti. Aduh.....Dipegangnya plastik berisi isi ayam yang abru dibeli di kedai runcit tingkat bawah. Mana anak anaknya? Mungkin tak ada. Macam manalah keadaan makcik tu....Tak mustahil aku menjadi si tanggang satu hari nanti kalau terus leka....Nauzubillah..Tak nak.....
Kisah dua: Di satu restoran makanan segera. Makan sambil melihat sekumpulan kanak kanak bermain main papan gelongsor. Raut wajah adik adik itu seakan akan sama. Tekaanku mungkin adik beradik. Ya, aku betul. Pakaian yang mereka pakai agak lusuh. Di satu sudut restoran itu, terlihat si ayah mendukung si bayi. Datanglah seorang wanita membawa dulang yang berisi 2 kentang bersaiz besar untuk dimakan seramai 8 orang. Ya Allah...Luluh benar hati ni....Nikmat yang Engkau turunkan pada hambaMu ini jarang disyukuri. Asyik mengeluh tak cukup je. Teringat zaman kanak kanak dulu... Bila nak makan fast food, mesti kongsi dengan adik beradik. Berebut rebut....
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