T is for??

What is tense? How it can emerge? What is the process? How to face the tension?
Tension is a natural feeling at first. Once, you unable to handle or cope with it, it become undesired feeling that can cause trouble to yourself. It is the same with rage, angry, sad, and even happy. All those feelings have the limit. Do not cross the limit because once you over the limit, it will bring you up to other uncontrollable situation. For example, you get scold by your respected boss because you do not finish up the very important report on time because you have a heavy workload that you cannot manage that time. You already give the positive reasons. Unfortunately, your boss is not in a good mood (means also facing the work problems). Then, you feel very disappointed and feel blamed. You think about that all the time till you cannot focus on your current duty. Everything you do is half way done. You feel like your surrounding is looking at you madly. Finally, everything is unsettled. You think about it over and over again. You feel very depressed. You do not find the way to improve yourself but just think about your lovely boss got angry on you for the first time. You cannot get rid those feelings for a long time. This is I call you cross the point.

Is it necessary for you to react like “madness” person when tense come into my mind? How to get rid of tense from yourself?

Actually this entry is especially dedicated to me. I try to avoid myself from being too selfish, too angry and unable to decide when become mad. Frankly, I am bad when I get mad. I will not talk to anyone unless necessary, don’t want anyone disturb me and if someone innocent disturb me although she does not know that I am in not in a good mood, she will get a ‘special’ gift from me, I will scold her, have a very heavy headache, eat a lot especially my favourite food at one time, and spend a lot of money when shopping. I am uncontrollable when facing this situation. Honestly, I don’t like what I am doing when I get crazy except eating and shopping. When I get mad because of someone (breaking promise, know the truth). It’s hard for me to forget about that. I know people make mistake....................

I do a lot of reading about tense, especially about how to overcome tension and be calm. But still right now, I failed. What I am trying to do to defeat my mad is berwudhu’, read quran verse that I remember, or sleep. But, still failed....Maybe the regret is impure. Not directly from my heart.

I need the cure to treat my tense..............