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When my boss asked me whether I want to go to FTU UPM for bacteria fermentation, last 2 weeks I guess..I dont know the best answer for that.. Because the last experience I gained when go to that place was very terrible....I dont know how to describe my feelings and what actually happened that makes me really worry to say yes for my boss. However, I want to or have to think positive and 'yes' comes across my mind......Now.......its begin.....

Last week, I did a very small failed experiment and it doesnt mean I 100% failed... For every failure, there comes a light of success....We need or have to see the failure from every aspect and I am absolutely guarantee there will be some amendments that we can alter to see the glory..... Starting next week, I need to be strong mentally and physically because I have to sacrifice myself for 4 consecutive days with 10- 15 % rest I think..Oh noooooo....Really really hope this time the experiment wont let me down again..........The frustration really make me hopeless 'sometimes'..

Last Wednesday and Thursday, I went to Risk Communication workshop sponsored by Malaysia Biotechnology Corporation...Yeah, it was a really good experience but I felt like a very stupid person because I couldnt convey my thoughts.. I did not grab a chance to improve myself, unable to hide my bad behaviour..Why its really hard for me to speak in front of the strangers...Why I takes a long time to feel comfortable at a new place, new people....Why I can be like them..Just express their thoughts without hesitation.....Why I can be like them...Very coward......I dont want myself to be like this..I think, this isnt my true identity..Yeah, its true that I am a little bit shy person, but I know that myself able to do better than this.I know it...I need to find the truth of Nur Hani Ramli............................ But, what makes me happy a litte bit was I able to overcome my fearness on the second day..Actually I want to 'ponteng' from attending the workshop...But finally I decided to stay there until the end of the event...Yeahhhhhhhhhh.... one star for me...