wut i feel...

bismillah....

rite now, i feel very sad...many things in my mind.
i donno whether this feeling is gud or not, but sometimes when im alone, i feel very safe bcoz i believe my creator will take care of me selalu.....
ape yang aku rase?
i think normal la kalo manusia sering merasakan dirinya ditinggalkan, digunakan, dipermainkan, diambil kesempatan dan seangkatan dengannya.. but, how to overcome those problems?
wut i do rite now is stay sengsorang, i do my works, i feel dont like to duduk lepak macam selalu dengan officemates..abis time kerja, straight drive balik rumah, tgk tv, menunaikan ibadat, sambung tgk tv, baca buku,then, sleep till subuh..repeat the same thing..

one thing i notice ttg myself kalau ada problem is muka sememeh, senang menangis, suka tgk orang yang kurang senang@mampu sbb nak menambahkan kekuatan hati(merasakan diri ini bertambah syukur terhadap limpahan rezeki oleh Allah). i know my reaction during this time mmg teruk..i neglect everything arounds me..i know maybe ada yang terasa but this wont happen to me if the surrounding do not force me to react like this...i always try my best not to react in negative way, but sometimes i lost....i reaaaaallllyyy depressssss.....sigh.....

what will happen if i always react like this everytime i face the problems? how i can change myself to be a better lady?